Perfect is a lie

“Your life is perfect” they say
I smile and laugh
I think they’re foolish
How can they not see the tears underneath this smiles
Oh they haven’t noticed the cuts on my wrist n my thighs
They don’t seem to notice me at all yet they think I’m happy
Even when I stopped talking in our family gatherings, words were replaced with nods n smiles ..
The silence has slit the words out .
All the days I’ve shut the sun from coming Into my dark and cried the loudest yet no one noticed my puffy eyes in the morning
I want to tell them am sad but am afraid they’ll ask why
And when I tell them nothing they’ll think I’m crazy.. maybe I am crazy after all.
But when I lay down finally at rest please don’t cry for me
Don’t you dare disturb my peace at last.. I want Yall to say those words “rest in peace”
Cause I’ll find peace beyond than I’ll find here

Ghudie